Damn all hollows eve what a day

So this is it, or at least I think it is. This is the issue at hand. Right now on Friday 30th 2009 my shift is now done. Everyone else on the shift is either moved to another shift or they are going to be let go. I really don’t know what I am going to do at this point. Last post I did mention this but I got a little bit more information. My boss is fighting for my job. I am so happy about that. Not the part where she has to fight for my job but that she is doing it. It makes me feel great that she thinks so highly of me that she would go to bat for me. So here I am on the edge of starting to pound the pavement again. I am so not looking forward to this at all. I thought I had found my dream job and I was going to work out well. Well let’s see where this go now.

The next thing on the list.

So four months ago I was on cloud nine because I started a new job at a great company. The opportunities were vast and hopeful. Now we are four months from that time. I have learned so much and I still love my job. The people for the most part are great. I couldn’t ask for a better boss. But with that said it is looking like starting Monday I will be back to beating the pavement in search of a job. Our night shift testing will be done on the 29th of October. Seems because of budget concerns and just overall luck of the draw, I am no longer among the employed. How do I feel about that? Well I am upset, kind of lost in the “what am I going to do now”? But with that being said I feel like I am in a much better place than I was last year. I have the backing of a great boss that thinks I have been doing a good job. She even fought for me to stay. I am at the point where I am not sure how I should feel. I know for a fact that this is the first time I have left a job and not been pissed off with the company. Or even pissed off at anyone in the company. I just need to get busy and find something permanent that allows me to take care of my family the way that they should be taken care of.

Weekend fun

This was a wonderful weekend. I am tried but also very relaxed to tell you the truth. Saturday started very very early. I got off work at 1:30 am but that was just a kind of to the damn weekend. I wasn’t able to really get to sleep. I had to take a friend home from my place at like 3 am. I was so tired but so awake that I couldn’t go to sleep at all. I love my friends but damn sleep and I are not on good terms right now. So when I was finally able to get to sleep it was 5am. I knew I would have to get up early and get the day started but oh well. When I woke up and got dressed it was 10 am time to start the fun of surprising my sweetie. I went first to get her flowers, 1 dozen roses, green and hot pink. The florist did one hell of a great job putting them together. She made it so that the greens and pinks just stood out and it looked great. So now I had the flowers I had the wine and I was set. Now the hard part of my little adventure. Part of my plan was to drive our car to the hotel. The hotel was in Redondo Beach. The Portofino Inn and Yacht club, this is a wonderful hotel in the Redondo area. It’s right on the water. So I was able to come early enough that I was able to come and decorate the room. Everyone at the hotel was wonderful and very helpful. After I decorated the room it was now time to try and get home in time. I had to get home in 3 hours. Oh man this is going to be close. I caught one bus and it seemed to take so long time to get where I needed to be. But I was able to make it with 20 minutes to spare. Get showered and dressed and even had time to sit and take a breath. My girl couldn’t have been more excited all the way to the show. She couldn’t get the smile off her face. The fact that I was able to pull it all off was great. What was even better was the fact that she didn’t find out any of the plan. For this I am padding my own back. OH and on a side note we are getting married again. We just haven’t set a date, but this time it’s going to be something very small. Less than twenty people will be invited that is for sure.

relaxing at last.

I can’t believe I have not posted anything in the last couple of weeks. It’s not that I haven’t had anything to say. I have even started typing out a few little things that have happened. I just couldn’t finish the thoughts that went along with them. I have been working some insane hours. I have been averaging about 60 + hours a week. Sleep and I have not been good friends lately. It seems to come and go as it pleases and leaves me awake till the wee hours of the morning. It sucks when I can go to “sleep” and awaken all before the sun comes up. It’s really starting to put a bit of a strain on my piece of mind. I am enjoying work and other than trying to keep everyone on track here it’s been going alright. I need to stay on top of these guys sometime. They tend to lose a bit of focus if I don’t watch them like a hawk. It’s funny but I have become more of a damn baby sitter than I have ever been before. They feel that since the job is kind of easy that they don’t have to pay as much attention as they should. What is sad is that even when I am standing over them they think this isn’t reflecting on their performance. At the end of the day part of my job will be to evaluate their performance and with them lacking. The future isn’t bright for them that Is for damn sure.
Next week I have my anniversary and I can’t wait to have a long weekend with my girl. But right now there seems to be a few issues. I sent out the damn deposit over three weeks ago. I called today and the damn place said I don’t have any deposit on record. Oh hell no, I have the damn money order copy anybody spent that money order there is going to be hell to pay for sure. I have had this all planned out for over 2 months and for something to fuck it up in the last week, I don’t think so.

Damn someone kill the music

I can’t believe how much things can go so well and so badly at the same time. Work has been going so well and I could be happier with the way this part of my life is going. But my personal life is in a bit of a twister. “L” went to see our therapist and all the bad crap from her childhood came busting through. So from the moment she came home there has been a crying fest going on at my house. “L” has just been crying and not really aware of why. To compound all this, her boss’s boss is playing a silly power game. Just playing this dumb ass game where she is writing her up for crap she isn’t even a part of. So the fact that “L” started crying like someone just died only makes the power player feel better. This type of person just pisses me off. But I know that she will get hers and this all will come and bite her in the ass. The Crying has stopped for now. We had to go back to the Therapist, but it helped out more than we could ever know. Damn I love the therapist now. On a side note, the only thing right now that I am down about at this moment at work is. I HATE KARAOKE….. I had to move my desk a couple of weeks ago and I seat in a room with 15 people singing karaoke. They are driving me insane. They are all on different songs and singing at different levels. I can feel the brain cells exploding as the night go on. I can’t wait to have this project over with. Because if this goes on much longer I will be go deaf from the pencils I have jammed into my ears.

stressed but loving it

Today I have decided to write up something to try and describe that the hell has been going on in my life the last couple of weeks. I am still working and I do still love my job. But in my 12 years in the video game industry I have never been part of the drama that I have been a part of in the last couple of weeks. Since starting this job I have had to suspend a couple of people. I’ve had to fire one guy. I have had to drive my bosses car home so that she could get there safely because she was threaten at work. I have had fake “death threats” and lots and lots of crying. The sad part about it is that this has been focused on one person. But I do have to say I still love this job and can’t think of anything else I would rather do. My girl and I have been getting together better than ever. We went to our therapist and even she said we have done a 180 since we first came in. We have come a really long way since we first started seeing her. It’sbeen the most amazing thing ever. We have gotten to the point where we have started talking about getting married again. We have just started so we are not making any plans right now. My girls’ biggest issue at this point is her mom. Her Mom tends to be a very bitter person about everything. Oh well she is too old to change and I know it. I will deal with her when I have to and not have her stand in our way. Sleep is not mybest friend right now but my other best friend and lover is making everything good.

The fourth in San Fran

Wow so much has happened in the last couple of weeks. I am going to have a lot of catching up to do. First off our trip to San Francisco was great. We had a couple of little hick-ups but over all we had a really wonderful time. We started our little vacation with a very pleasant drive to the Airport. My girl was a trooper all the way. I know that she hates to drive with my best friend as he thinks all the roads are racetracks. But she really was great and he even slowed down and took his time. Now for him that is something huge. We were flying out of Long Beach Airport. I love this airport for the soul reason that it’s the quickest wait time from the curb to the terminal. No lie it’s about a 5 minute wait from car to sitting in the terminal. This is now the time for our vacation to start. It’s a nice short flight to San Francisco. The only thing about the flight that had me kind of weird about was the landing. I mean damn I look out the damn window and there is another plane that if I wasn’t sure was going to be landing at the same time. Now I didn’t know this damn airport was that big but damn why are two planes landing at the same time? Well turns out there were two runways. I breathed a sigh of relief at this point. OK now that was an interesting start to the weekend. We decided to take the train into downtown San Fran. When we got off the train there was the normal homeless and street performers. It’s a little scary the moment you get out of the stop. Then we had to walk 3 blocks to the hotel. Now If you have ever been to San Fran there is a area known as the tenderloin. This is a rough as hell area. As a matter of fact within the 3 blocks we witness at least 3 drug deals and a bunch of thugs. And that is just the first night. After that we couldn’t enjoy the weekend more. People watching up there was wonderful. We spent the full day just walking and watching. As a matter of fact that is also what we did on Sunday. But Sunday we went to Golden Gate Park. This is a huge fucking park. We didn’t even cover a third of the park and that is after 3 hours of walking at this point. We spent four hours in the park and then my girl wanted to walk some more. She wanted to make our way to Lombard Street. My god woman, we have been walking for hours and you want to do more? You are insane woman. This also was the only real fight we got into for the whole weekend. All in all this was one of the best weekends that I have ever been on.

As an aside when we got back home on Tuesday. I was greeted with the news that I have a new job. After seeking and searching day in and day out. I am now gainfully employed. Yeaaa.