My Happy Happy Life

Wow, I have been trying to think of something to write over the last couple of weeks.  It’s been beyond slow in my life. This isn’t really a bad thing. I mean nothing really exciting has happened.  A lot of sleeping and just sitting around watching tv and some scuba diving.  I’m not saying that the scuba diving isn’t exciting. It’s just that not every dive is an exciting one. But as the saying goes in surfing or fishing, the worst day diving is better than the best day at work.  This saying so applies to me and diving.

Now with all that being said this week has been kind of big for me. I got a call from one of my head hunters. He had an opportunity for me. After speaking with him I was really blown away with this company had to offer. So I am in the interview process right now. So far it’s going very well. I am waiting to see what is the next step. The face to face is being worked out as we speak. To be hired on again to not have to pay my own taxes and insurance. This is the most exciting thing going on in my life right now. But I also have a couple of dives that I really love doing. Going out with a couple of my buddies it will be an awesome time out in the ocean. Blue water diving, sunken wreaks and a little bit of hunting. This is what I want out of life. Enjoying it life to best of my ability. To go to bed at night with a smile on my face and warm feeling in my heart.  My life is great that is for sure.  

Weekend fun times

What an amazing Halloween weekend I had. Well at least Sat and Sunday was amazing. Halloween night was a little quiet just as I wanted it to be.  Saturday was spent hanging with my buddy.  We went to lunch at one of our favorite places. Fred’s is a cheesy Mexican franchise place located in Huntington Beach.  It has one of the most awesome views of the Pacific Ocean.  The food isn’t amazing but we sat had beers and caught up on what the hell has been going on in our lives.  It is always good to just catch up with friends and reconnect. It makes for amazing friends when no matter how long you two haven’t spoken for. You can pick up right where you left off.  As if no time has pass what so ever.  Now that was my Saturday. Sunday my plan was to meet up with a big bunch of my friends and go diving down in San Diego. This is always a fun time. Well it would seem that Mother Nature had another plan for us.  It seems that there was water falling from the sky. I mean what the hell is this Rain you speak of?  So yea it rained for two days in California. A very rare event to say the least.  So instead of sulking my lovely wife and I decided to go ahead and drive down to San Diego and just enjoy the damn day.  First we met up with her Aunt and cousin for breakfast.  After that we went to the Indian Casino on the way to a place to get some of the greatest Apple pie around.  I haven’t been to this Casino in over 8 years.  My god it had changed so damn much. All for the better, hell I am already making plans to go back and have a good time there.  Was there for about an hour and I only lost 13$ playing Blackjack.  This is a good day for me.  This makes going for that drive through the woods to get my pie all the better.  I love me some apple pie. This place called Julian is one old rustic small town. It looks like a very old town that is barely creeping out of the 18oo’s. The Banjo’s were very strong in this part of California. LOL And that is how you have a great weekend away from the house. 

Grin and be happy.

Wow what a roller-coaster ride of life…  I went to the mind doc and got a bit of insight for the way that I was feeling. I have always had a hard time accepting when things are going well that it will always be that way.  I am not saying I have had the hardest life.  As a matter of fact I would say I had a really good life growing up.  My family traveled, we hung out and my brother and I played sports. Hell my parents were a huge part of that.  You know ‘Team Mom’ and ‘Coach’ type of being involved parents.  Even with all of those things going for me growing up. I still have this fear of when will that other shoe drop?  I have got to stop thinking this way.  I have to enjoy what is going on in my life.  Enjoy what is happening and stop looking for the bad things that are coming from around the corner.  So that is my plan for life. I am going to stop worrying and live life as it should be lived. With a smile on my face and pep in my step. 

Damn what a moody week.

It’s funny; I am sitting at my desk and wondering? What the hell is wrong with me these days? I have a beautiful wife that while she drives me insane some days she makes me so happy. I am working with awesome people. I have a roof over my head and a car in the driveway. I have family and friends that love and care about me. Yet with all this going on, I am feeling depressed is the best way to describe it. It’s almost like a mild depression. I don’t feel as if there is no hope. I just feel as if “I am 43 and I should be further along in my life”.   Things that I used to do that would bring me happiness don’t affect me the same way.  To tell you the truth it seems that this is something that just started happening. I am guessing I am just going through a mood lately.  I do have a person that I am seeing that should be able to help me. So at this point I am just going to have to see my shrink and hope that helps.  Life will get better from here of that I am sure.

Long time no speak.

Wow it's been long time since I have blogged anything. I have had so many things happened with my life. But at this point I just wanted to do a small catch up on my life. Since last I have typed out a blog I have found a girl and I got married. At the time I thought that this woman was perfect. It is now 7 years down the road. I know for a fact she is not perfect and I am the pervert...  After 7 years of being together it seems that any little thing will set her off. Today I got rid of my twitter. Why? because she didn't like that I was a fan of porn stars.  Ok that I can understand. But when I pointed out that I am a fan of porn stars like she is of movie stars. First I was wrong, second It was not the same thing because they are all fully clothed.   Her Favorite movie stars? The Rock who got famous running around in his underwear/briefs.  And Vin  Diesel a guy who shows off when he can where he can.  When I first got on Twitter I got on there for work. Since work was on twitter I had to be on. Then it became somewhere I could vent how I was feeling at that time and moment. Then my wife got on it hell now I couldn't even do that. Hell then why not just follow people that I was a fan of? Hell I thought this would be something safe. NOPE!!!!
Since I was a fan of porn stars and they tend to post nude photos. Now they are all skanks and whores. Oh but I could have my porn collection at home no problem. Hell she would even watch with me. But she feels disrespected if I like a picture or even comment on their picture. Now that is disrespectful for her and acting as if I am single. The comment that I posted?  "As a fan thanks for sharing your photo." nothing more nothing less.  Lately I have been in the dog house more than not. I am not sure why. She has been more touchy and more emotional than ever. I am not sure on what to do. And this is why I wanted to start back to blogging. As a way to vent again. This is just the start. I have more to catch up on and more to tell.

Damn all hollows eve what a day

So this is it, or at least I think it is. This is the issue at hand. Right now on Friday 30th 2009 my shift is now done. Everyone else on the shift is either moved to another shift or they are going to be let go. I really don’t know what I am going to do at this point. Last post I did mention this but I got a little bit more information. My boss is fighting for my job. I am so happy about that. Not the part where she has to fight for my job but that she is doing it. It makes me feel great that she thinks so highly of me that she would go to bat for me. So here I am on the edge of starting to pound the pavement again. I am so not looking forward to this at all. I thought I had found my dream job and I was going to work out well. Well let’s see where this go now.

The next thing on the list.

So four months ago I was on cloud nine because I started a new job at a great company. The opportunities were vast and hopeful. Now we are four months from that time. I have learned so much and I still love my job. The people for the most part are great. I couldn’t ask for a better boss. But with that said it is looking like starting Monday I will be back to beating the pavement in search of a job. Our night shift testing will be done on the 29th of October. Seems because of budget concerns and just overall luck of the draw, I am no longer among the employed. How do I feel about that? Well I am upset, kind of lost in the “what am I going to do now”? But with that being said I feel like I am in a much better place than I was last year. I have the backing of a great boss that thinks I have been doing a good job. She even fought for me to stay. I am at the point where I am not sure how I should feel. I know for a fact that this is the first time I have left a job and not been pissed off with the company. Or even pissed off at anyone in the company. I just need to get busy and find something permanent that allows me to take care of my family the way that they should be taken care of.