Why I hate Christmas

So ok another day goes by and we get closer and closer to Christmas. I don’t know if I mention this but I hate Christmas. I don’t know if it stems from when I was little and having to do the church plays where I had to learn a speech? Or if it has something to do with the fact that I may have had one or two good Christmas’s since I have been out of high school so many years ago. I think the major thing is I don’t have relationships that last to the Christmas season. I think most of the women that I date think like men. They dump you right at the holidays and then afterward they like you again. I have never understood this type of thinking. My last relationship (if you can call it that) was with an ex girlfriend that found me 2 and half years after we lost contact. At first I wasn’t all that sure that I wanted to continue what I knew would be the breaking of my heart. Well it turns out I was right and my heart was broken like fine china thrown against a wall. Maybe I should give you all some details about this whole thing. R and I have a long history going back to when we were 20 years old. We met at a night club and really hit it off. Jump 3 years later and we are going thru a rough patch and she cheats on me with an old boyfriend that always treated her like crap. We break up and try to do the whole lets be friends thing. Eleven month later an out of the blue phone call to her and I learn that she just had a baby boy. WHAT?? I say, and then I start to count and say wait a min. From what I was told and she still says to this day I am not the father. Fast forward to earlier this year. She emails me on the addictive website myspace. Out of no where I get an email saying hello and it’s me I am single now and have been looking for you. Again another WTF moment. We take it slow for about 4 months just because she is just out of the marriage to said asshole she cheated on me with. Turns out he was the ass that everyone was telling her he was. Every thing was good with us for about 2 months of the 4. Next thing I know I am lower then dog pooh and I have no reasons why. The only reason that I was told is because people change. Nothing more nothing less just that. OH damn I have no clue what the hell happened and now I am on the “I hate women” kick. It all was seem that christmas is the worst season to try and get to know someone. Trying not to be but damn it is hard. Oh well I think that I will just be alone for a while or lots and lots of meaningless sex. I think I might just have to go the second route.