Living up to my Idol

What a slow and uneventful week it has been. About the most exciting thing that has happened to me this week is finding a ten dollar bill on the way home the other day. I am in no way shape or form complaining. It’s been a long time coming that I have really nothing to worry about. Also believe me things have not gotten better, I have just come to realize that life will go on and that there is not a damn thing I can do about it. I can try my best to live it to the fullest. Deal with the things that I can deal with and let the world take care of the things that I can’t control. This “Zen” moment came to me while getting my ass kicked by my friends for the pity party that I was throwing for myself. It was an eye opener for sure. This is going to last for a few days or until the end of July which ever I can hold out for. I was reading something in another blog about how much this guy drinks and how he feels afterwards. Yes Friendly I am talking about you. Well as I am reading this I start to see myself in some of the things that he is saying. Like drinking and then just having the need to go. Not really go somewhere just go. I have done this a few times. Most of the time I just go grab some food and think about at what point the beer I was drinking became toxic. Oh yea and why the hell did I have that fourth wet pussy? It’s a drink very sweet but I just love telling the waitress that I want that damn drink. LOL But I do have to say that for the most part I have not passed out and not remembered how I got home or what happened. I think the closest I have come to something like that is going to one of my Christmas parties for work. One of the lucky parts is that I was staying at the hotel where the party was. And the other was that I wasn’t the drunkest one there. Yea I remember saying I have to go and heading to the elevator. Next thing I remember is getting to my floor and trying to remember what the hell my room number is. After that I wake up on my bathroom floor and I have no clue what happened in the middle of all that. Yea that is my black-out story Friendly I have nothing on you, you are still my idol. LOL