Getting back into the game

I can't believe this pass week. For some reason California has been moved to the surface of the sun. I just move into a new apartment and I can't sleep. Why can't I sleep? Because I have to get up every twenty minutes and towel off. I mean how the hell is it that I am dripping wet just by sleeping? I am beyond happy that the heat wave has passed.
So I've been having a really good time on the weekends. Even though I have a friend coming by some weekends and I have been having more fun there is something missing. Damn I am thinking about starting my search for a girlfriend again. Oh don't get me wrong I don't mean I am going out tonight and finding a girlfriend. It just means that for the first time in a while I am open to the option of having one. It's been a while since I have really had a girlfriend. I miss the sharing of special time together. And no I am not talking about sex. I'm talking about waking up early on a Saturday morning and taking a drive. No plans or anything just pointing the car and going. Or planning a vacation that the two of you will go on and look forward to every day till that great day is here. There are some real advantages to a girlfriend that a f'buddy just doesn't fill. A friend and I were talking about this the other day. It's to the point that we have friends with benefits but it's not the same as it use to be. Now it's friends in a real term. Not just come over lets have some fun and then you leave. Its more of if this person was in the same spot that I was in it would be much better. It's not just sex anymore. I don't know I guess I am just going to put myself out there and see where that takes me. Oh damn put me in coach I'm ready to play.