Damn it one more round please

Oh why oh why do I drink so much? Wait a better question is how can I drink so much? It’s now Sunday evening and I am starting to feel just a little bit better. My Saturday was a busy one. I had to run some errands so I got an early start. Everything I had to do was all in the same area. Also it was only about 2 miles away. So being it a great day around here I decided to walk. I felt good about it and it was great exercise. After running the errands I went to lunch. There is a place around here that is called the YardHouse. It has a shyt load of beers on tap. I am thinking something around the number of 150 beers at least. So this is how my day started. Oh what a great start to the day. After having a couple of drinks at YardHouse I decide to come home and continue the fun. I was talking to a friend online. She was going to go out with some of her friends. Since she was going to be around here we decided maybe we could have some fun. So she comes over we have some fun then I head to my bar and she heads to hers. Fun was had by all. Now this is where it gets a little bit interesting. In July of 06 I went to this same bar and met two women. While both were very nice I really hit it off with just one of them. We got together that night and enjoyed some time together. We went out a couple of times and then things just kind of went south between us. I didn’t understand why it just did. I cared but it wasn’t going rule me. So I am at the bar last night. I see this woman that I have seen before but tonight she seemed really familiar. She looks like the friend of the woman that I had hooked up with the year before. So after drinking I think the 6th beer of the night I got brave. I went up to talk to her and asked her if she was who I though she was. Well she was and before I could even ask how her friend was she popped the news to me. Within the year and couple of months the girl that I dated had gotten married and had a baby. Damn I have heard of people moving fast but damn really? Now this had thrown me a bit. Not because she was happy. But mostly because within a year she had found complete happiness that I had been looking for. While she is happy I am barely one step pass where I was a year ago. I do have a new job where I can get back on my feet. I also have an apartment of my own. While I have had made some progress in my life I don’t really feel like it’s been enough. Yea I think this might have been the thing that pushed me to drink those 4 last drinks. Yea just when you feel low about yourself just drink more booze. We all know how that helps things out. Well I’m on the wagon for now. At least for the week or so lets see how that goes.