Cirque Du Fun

So today is my third date with my new friend. What’s funny about this is that we have been going out for about two months at this point. We have been on really only two dates. Our first date and then the one other date where we hung out with my friends. Tonight we are going to see a Cirque Du Soliel show, it’s called Corteo. I have seen this show before, hell it was just a couple of months ago. My friend has not ever seen the show before. As a matter of fact she hasn’t even really heard about it. She did send me a text last night telling me just how excited she is to be going. This is one of the things that I really love doing. Showing something new to someone is one of the best feelings. Introducing something new to someone that has never experienced it before is great fun. So tonight will be great fun for us both.

One or the other please.

Man, I can’t believe how things go in my life. I really think that we are tested to see just what our breaking points are. At this point things are going well at least in my relationships. But my career has been rough to say the least. I love the industry that I am in but for some reason finding a good job that stays good is really hard. I tend to get jobs that are great for a while. Then the next thing I know either they hire someone else who wants to take the company in a whole new direction. Or they just begin to fall apart because they are not making any money. I would love to get on with a company that is going to be around for a while. And I need to learn how to deal with idiots better. I tend to not be very forgiving when it comes to them. And that has gotten me in trouble.

On another note I am at a bit of a crossroads. I don’t know how to feel. On one hand I have a very nice and beautiful woman that seems to really like me. Yet she is so scared to commit that the littlest joke freaks her out. Now on the other hand I really still have feelings for an ex of mine. It finally came out that we both feel the same way. We both knew how we felt but were a little scared to admit that we had those same feelings. So I have two women that I have feelings for but neither is in a position to return the feelings that I have. One is not really ready and the other is gun shy. Man if it’s not one thing it’s another with me and women. I’m not really sure why it is that I can’t just find a normal female with no issues. Yea yea not I’m not really sure if that is in this reality either. Oh well life is what you make it and I will just see where it takes me. Work my hardest and do my best. Hell what else can this crazy world ask of us?

The Search is on.

Ok so its 2 days until Thanksgiving. I have been trying to sit down and write something but I have been beyond busy at work lately. Well busy is a little bit of an overstatement. I have been stressed more than anything else. It would seem that the idiot that they hired wanted more money. So what does that mean? It means that a few people got fired and their jobs are now outsourced to somewhere else. So do I feel safe in my job not even close. I have spent a few weeks looking for a new job and also talking with friends and people I know in the industry. I am going through this in a totally different way then I did before. Yea so this has been a very stressful couple of weeks. It's starting to get to me but it nothing I can do but find something new. Try my best and keep my nose clean. Oh man this is so going to be fun.

On another note my relationship with my friend has been going well. We spend time with each other as much as we can. But the interesting part is that I am not sure if we are moving into the area of a real relationship yet. It really seems like we are but the moment that it might come up she gets a bit scared. At this point I'm not really worried about it. It will just have to play out how it plays out. It's the only way that we can do it so. I will let it play out and see if she comes around or not. So on to the holidays oh how I can't wait.