Damn it's a Zoo out there.

Man it’s been a couple of weeks since I have posted and there are two things I wanted to get off my chest. None of this is bad but I have been meaning to write for about a week now. The first thing is I forget just how rural the area I work in really is. I mean the amount of wild life around this office just amazes me. There have been times I have gone outside to make a phone call and there are rabbits just hopping around. Another time I was in the parking lot and a roadrunner walking around. And I think the topper was I was walking up the street from the office when a fox was kind of just looking at me from up the street. At first I though it was some kind of dog but at second and third glance I knew it was a fox. Man I am amazed just how much wildlife there really is in California. And this is in the city so I really think it might blow my mind if I was to go to the woods. Oh well. Now to the other thing that has been on my mind lately. Well I have noticed that A and I have been spending a lot of time together. As a matter of fact out of a five day week I think there were only 2 days I spend away from her. And we are having a great time spending some really quality time together. Now here is the thing. The moment that any talk or slight joke about our relationship comes up she kind of freaks out. I’m not talking about if we are sitting around joking about things. I am talking about one of those back handed jokes that don’t seem like a joke. But she does freak out none the less. I can tell she wants to be with me and that she really does like me. But I also can tell that she is very scared of commitment right now. I’m really not sure how she will get over this or even if she can. We have serious conversations about it but she says the same thing. “I don’t want to mess things up by moving to fast” This I understand and can live with. I just don’t want to move to fast either. I have dated enough rubber room inmates to know that I need to not just jump into something. But we are having fun and treating this like we are dating and not just a booty call arrangement. That is a step in the right direction I think.