First step is the hardest.

I have been forgiven, and I can’t be happier about it. Our relationship is stronger now and it’s good. It’s been a very interesting couple of weeks. A got to meet my parents this pass weekend. LOL I tried to warn her about them but even that wasn’t good enough. My parents are a strange pair. I love them to death but it’s very clear where I get my sense of humor. Well the day went very well and my parents loved her. And she loved my family also. It was great to get that little bit of the relationship out of the way. Oh on the note of our relationship. After the visit with my parents we had a long drive back home. On the way home we had a really deep talk about what we are doing and how we feel about each other. We are really taking baby steps and making sure we talk about things. She likes me and I for sure like her. But the problem is that she is very scared about where all this is leading. But we have stopped acting like this is nothing but friends with benefits. We are a couple and we are dating. It’s funny but mostly everyone we know already thinks that we are a couple before we would admit it. Her family has been asking and asking ok so what is our relationship because we seem like more than friends. We haven’t been just friends for a long time. We’ve been more of a couple for about a month now. Even people we have met on the street can see it. So the first step is just admitting it.

Wake up you idiot I'm talking to you.

Ok I am an idiot. Yea I had to say this after what happened this weekend. I am an idiot just for the fact that I fell asleep while in a very very serious conversation. Yea my girl and I were having a great conversation. It was very open and honest. We talked about our relationship, children and where we are headed. And pretty much in the middle of talking about all this I just pass out. So she went to sleep very disappointed in me. I can really understand what she is talking about. She opened up to me and what do I do I fall asleep without saying good night or even “Honey lets talk about this tomorrow”. Yea I would be upset also. It’s almost like I didn’t care or something. We talked more about what happened and while she does know I was tired she is still very hurt by it. Well next month we are going on a cruise together and I have a few surprises in store for her. I am going to get a limo to take us to the cruise port and have flowers sent to her the day before. Yes I am really pouring it on. But to tell the complete truth I was going to do this way before we started having this problem. So it’s just me going forward with plans as I thought about. Can’t wait it will for sure be the most fun I have had in a long long time.

I'm Free I'm Free

I have to say I am very glad that I put off writing till today. After an 11 day vacation from work I am now back in this hell hole. But the good news is it’s only for 2 more weeks. I am off this sinking ship and safe. We were lucky to get a few days off over the holidays. It was much needed and very welcomed. Well It would seem that a few of us used that time very wisely. I say this because I am not the only one that is starting the New Year off on the good foot. Two others are leaving the company also. So the hole from the Iceberg is getting bigger and bigger. Oh man it’s a great feeling to get a new job and not worry about this company anymore. I mean from the boss who hates to talk to other human’s offline. I mean why can’t your boss call you into his office and talk to you? You mean you have to have a webcam and IM to ask me a simple question? You are an idiot boss. It’s amazing that even after driving this company into the ground you won’t even care. You will move on to the next bunch of idiots that will pay you loads of money just to make a website and destroy their company. Yeaaaaa you that is for sure.

Now New Years Eve was a great and wonderful day. I got to hang out with my girl and her friends. It would seem that “my girl” and I have been seeing each other for about 3 months. It’s amazing that it’s been this long because it doesn’t even seem like it’s been that long. Well the first thing that her friends ask me once my girl is out of ear shout is “what’s up, you guys together or what?” Yea you know the question that you really don’t want to answer. At least I didn’t because I didn’t want to put my foot in my mouth. I know to tell the truth I would love to be with her but I know how scared she is over being hurt. She doesn’t show any less affection toward me. We act like a couple in every way. But I do understand how she feels and why she isn’t ready to say if we are or not. I just said that we are having fun and that we are taking it one day at a time. Now with that being said. There is something to be said when someone has too much booze in them. After a few too many drinks my girl decided to let it all spill out. She told me how she feels and why she hasn’t said anything yet. I decided that it would be better to just not talk about it while she was drunk. I didn’t want her to say something she didn’t feel comfortable saying right then and there. But we did clear the air so we are still going strong and enjoying what we have. It’s been a great time and it’s still going.