Ok I am wrong again somehow.

I can’t believe the last couple of weeks. It’s gone from one fight to another. This week it’s that I can’t joke around with my fiancé about dancing. She has been asking me to go dancing for a while now. It’s something that is important to her. So after putting it off for one reason or another I say you know what why not it’s something she will like. Let’s do it. Well oh how I would have been so happy if it was that simple. My life would be wonderful if things could just be simple these days. She doesn’t want to just go out dancing she wants to do ballroom dancing. You know formal dancing which for me; a person that can barely keep beat. Oh yea this is going to go well for sure. But you know what that is beside the point. So she asks me if I wouldn’t mind dancing. You know what I decided that I would just say yes. It should be fun, and to tell the truth I was excited by it. Her first words, “Are you serious?” Thinking that she was being flirty and joking around I say yea I am I will pick out some music. Oh the joy that little bit of joking caused. At this point now I am the anti-Christ. “I just have to put my little spin on thing. “ Now when I tell her I was joking and that I am really excited by this. I even told her I was looking into going to a professional dance studio to learn. Oh that was even more of a joy to hear. When I let her in on that little tidbit I was now told. “I can’t believe you would want to share this with someone else and not me.” Are you fucking serious? I am trying to do something for you and you are fighting me on every little bit of it. I at my wits end at this point. I wasn’t looking for a fight as a matter of fact I was excited to do and share something with her. Now she is hurt that I don’t want to share with her. Even after talking with her and telling her that I want to share. This was a point less fight that was stupid. There is no reason behind it. I am not sure what the hell is going on at this point. But something is clearly off and from now until it’s right again I have a target on my head. Damn this is so going to be fun.

Damn really all at once?

Damn it, if this is what married life is going to be like I am in trouble. I mean damn, I can understand some of the mood swings. But the snapping at me every 15 mins? This is just driving me insane. Let me start from the beginning. My girl had some tooth problems that should have been taken care of before. But because she is scared of the dentist it didn’t get taken care of until it’s now driving her insane with pain. Now the for the many problems at the moment. 1.) She is in a lot of pain right now, the kind that won’t even let her sleep type of pain. 2.) She through this would be the best time to quit cold turkey on the smoking. Yea that is never something that goes well now is it? 3.) She hasn’t had her period in over a month and a half. Ok this one can’t also be partly my fault. All of this together has made life at home very very interesting. She snaps at the smallest thing these days. She is in pain, moody from not having a cig yet and on some vicodin that is making her feeling no pain. Oh well back to my beating now.

Just trying to hold on now.

I can’t believe just how much you women drive me insane. I love women but damn if sometimes I can’t ever figure them out. For some reason I have been in a two day fight with my future wife. Over me not reminding her about a friend coming over. Now I could understand this if it was weeks since I first told her about this, not two days. So to sum it up I found out a friend was coming over to help me move a few things. I told her about it and she said yes. Now coming the day of and she asks me about taking the car to work that day. I remind her of what we talked about and now I am in the dog house. Oh joys of joys. I am just going to ride this one out and hope that it doesn’t last too long. Well it didn’t take too long and all is good in future married life.
Now the other reason this was the month of the shitty mood. Well my mom has been sick for a very long time. She has MS which is Multiple Sclerosis she has had it since I was the age of 16 I would say. In that time it’s gotten worst and worst. At this point she is now bed ridden. One of the problems that you get when you are bedridden is bed sores. My mom gets a lot of those these days. The problem is they now get infected, as aside they are hard to heal. Since she has had so many infections the doctors decided that to best get rid of the infections they were going to take the leg that was getting all the infections. Four inches above the knee on the left leg they were going to take off. For me this was huge. I have watched my mother go from this vibrant woman to one that is depended on others and can’t even feed herself. So on Thursday the 24th they took off her leg and I was able to take time off to go down and support her. There were other family members there so that was very good. She was able to see all the people that do care. Everything came out alright and she is at home and resting recovering from the surgery. So that has been my last month or so. It’s going to be a better time now I hope. The family is that much better for it.