Job or winning lotto numbers give me one or the other

The holidays are upon us, this sucks ass. I am not working and it feels like shit because I can't do the things I want to do for the people I care about. At this point all our money is going into the wedding. And from what it looks like from this point until May that is where all the money that I am getting is going. If we want this to go the way we want that is just how it's going to go.
Well that is the way I am feeling at this point in time. The holidays always get me feeling this way. I know I am not the only one but It does seem to be a regular thing for me. As you might be able to tell I didn't get the job that I was hoping for. After three different interviews, a flight out to Austin Texas. They told me I wasn't a good fit. OK, that part I can deal with. But they still made it sound like I was in the running for another position. I even had the HR person tell me “It's looking Good”. I mean I would rather you not said anything at all if that was the case. Now I have no prospects and a Christmas where I have no money.
On another note we had a great thanksgiving. Everyone in my family loved her. It's funny I have never dated a girl that my whole family loved. But everyone that has met her and talked with her has falling in as much love as I did with her. Thanksgiving was also a time to meet family I have not seen in a long long time. It was great to see them again and catch up with they are doing and for them to see my sweetie. I am glad this part of my life is going well that is for damn sure.