Rougher days ahead

The countdown should be five and counting. But nope my insane mind has fucked that up. And right now I am just trying to get pass this week without to much bloodshed. Things around the house have been interesting to say the least. We have been talking and working on things but there is a bit of an uneasy tension. There are times that I see some glimmer of hope about us getting pass this. But then again there are signs that she is not getting over it and just wants to make me feel bad. Well it’s too late for that right now, I feel like hell damn near everyday I wake. We keep talking about the future, weeks down the road and even years down the road. There is a little at the end of the tunnel for sure. It’s just blinking off and on. More on than not but still blinking a bit.